Breaking news!

BREAKING NEWS!!!!!
(only for those who have seen me in person)



Ive finally straightened my hair!......well actually did that on thursday and today i just went in for a trim....christmas i'm all ready for you!

n im not putting my pic...coz im really not that photogenic....


anyway see ya for now.....who knws when il be back:(

I'm addicted to you

Another day gone to waste :(

My life at present seems to be too caught up in the unhealthy world of TV. I’ve heard people talking about their addiction to cigarettes and alcohol and even porn on various talk shows but I never understood what was so appealing and tempting about it that drew one closer and closer and just swallowed you whole like quicksand and you just couldn’t get out of it .Well now I get the picture.

IM ADDICTED TO TV!....

Whole day I’ve got only one thing on my mind-sit on the couch and stare at that bloody piece of crap! and I don’t even watch educational stuff!
Well...............I don’t actually agree with myself entirely. Movies can be educational....

Today I watched a beautiful movie-Sweet November...well its not a new one on the block and I never bothered to watch it before. The movie’s kinda like A WALK TO REMEMBER.

Charlize’s character was just marvellous. I just loved her attitude to life. She lived it the way she wanted to .Well her having less time in the world is a different matter .Anyway, I guess ,I dunno , but everyone of us ,deep down, would love to be like her-u knw,not thinking about THE job,not thinking about money ,not conforming to the rules of the place( it scares the shit outta me to change and i envy those who aren’t)

One could say that’s shirking away from responsibilities, wasting time thinking about a fool’s paradise by not being serious about what should be and seems to be a predetermined notion of things that are important.


Ah, my head’s spinning.............



Sheesh , why can’t i just think about make-up and boys and revenge tactics all the time...that’ll keep me busy.

Anyway I’ve spent only about three and half hours today studying .That’s it. And this has been the case since the past few days i’ve been home.

I just wanna let go.....of all the feelings ,all the thoughts....just sit and well, do nothing at all...no reminiscing, no painful memories, no daydreaming about incidents i would want to occur, no worrying about my exam BEING ON MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Panic attack..........................AGHHHHH

at-home-dont-wanna-study-so-wasting-my-time thoughts :D

been a long time...sometimes i just forget i actually love writing...even when what i write doesnt mean much...i actually started writing or rather discovered i was even interested last year at the time when our college yearbook was asking for articles....

i do wish i could write regularly...n i tell myself whatever excuse i have isnt good enough ....considering im good at making excuses..always saying no ...i just end up irritating the hell out of myself ....

so nowadays i just stay away from my computer...i dont have anything to do....i hate my classes(boooooooooooooooring)......and i just hate the nights i spend after them...i mean i know hostel can be fun....but there's just this void....i mean i can just snap out of it but dont choose too....pathetic is what i feel...

i love being crazy and stupid....that's when i really feel alive ....that's when i enjoy my life the most...that's when i forget to irritate myself with all those thoughts u think when ur so jobless.....

but alas,nowadys there's hardly been a time when i felt that.....should i be blaming the circumstances?......i dunno...

busy busy busy is what i wanna be, i want a tattoo(.....hmmmmm yeah!....)ooooooooh n a guy i like to have as my boyfriend ...i want my best friends to be in the same coll as me ...(fassu ,gautam and alison i do miss aloy)....i wanna be able to piss off my big brother all the time.(hee hee what fun that would be)...i wanna change my hairstyle(im doing it soon enough ,so thank god!)....i wanna stop being lazy(dunno if its ever going to happen in this lifetime ).....i wanna stop sucking at basketball :P....(but hey i think im getting better after i fell :D,i almost kicked ass!)...i wanna laugh n scream n act stupid n first and foremost stop pretending to be good...u kno there are times when u have these angry thoughts in ur head abt a person when he/she is right in front of you but u cant even manage to squeak out even some of them......well i wanna stop doing that.................................
my "want" list just keeps going on ....

ahh.....i feel better already....:)

and now i gtg study for my stupid exams....(ooooooooooooooooh yeah how could i forget...i want exams to be terminated )

buh bye for now :)