Brand New Eyes

Yesterday’s post had a very optimistic feel to it...when compared to several of my previous posts. Its a sad thing to notice in a blog. A dejected person always whining is not how I wanna spend my life. :)

Have you ever tried to forget everything you’ve learnt till now. Your beliefs, your  ideas on various subjects, the memories good or bad associated with different smells or time of the day...etc etc.


I wanna try doing that. You know ,forget what i was before. I’ve  been wishing for sometime to be able to look at things with a new perspective,  with brand new eyes; feel  everything i’ve felt before yet again, and feel for real this time and make my assessment ..........no not assessment but just enjoy them as they come ,good or bad. And make it a whole new experience from the start.


No previous judgements hindering me this time. Now how do i do this????


This means changing my whole life around.Is that even possible.

I read somewhere that it is.

“The whole world is what YOU think of you
So think of it differently and your life will change. “ :) :)

P.S. man! Sem exams on friday and im wasting my tiem getting distracted!!!I really need to get my head in the game :(.....I HATE STUDYING!!!

Fingers crossed!

They say ,if you have the conviction and if you believe in yourself and the changes you see around you or in you is the pleasant outcome you’ve always wished for ,nothing’s gonna stop you. We hear  so many stories about ordinary people making it big, or someone who’s expected to be so shattered by his misfortune that it comes as a great shock to see him smiling and continuing with the same zest for life as he had before. There’s so much optimism swirling around it you can’t help but hope.


Truth be told ,it is hard and demands a lot from you and i guess ,that’s the main reason why I never trusted in this simple truth enough to give it a try. My problems may be small ,but if I try ,I can just hope i get to the place where I want to .

Many decisions have been made in my head ,and most of the time many of those have never been followed through. I’m a bit apprehensive , ‘cause whatever I’ve done till now, has been a half hearted effort. Nothing for which i can say i gave it my best shot. So you can see my dilemma in trusting my own will.
I’ve got an idea right now .I’m pretty sure if I do this it’s gonna help a lot in the long run. So good luck to me! 

 Today
I burned the rice
(Sad little black grains that only Chinese water torture could remove from the pot)
I missed my train
(A caterpillar of white cars closed off its doors and inched into the dark wormhole of a tunnel without me)
it rained and
I forgot my umbrella
(Somehow, a drop found that space between my coat, my shirt, and my skin, and cold water dripped down my back).

But

I’ve got a dollar in my pocket
and there are all these excellent puddles on the ground
just right for jumping in.
There’s a smile on my face
and the day is looking up.

P.S again ,i didn't write this :P
Check out my friend Maddy's blog....man!she's got talent!

Beyond mundane

When i was in high school,my morld seemed to revolve around my self-confidence crisis,my friends and the guys after them.My mom had several stories to tell about the women in the church and in the neighbourhood ,about their lives ,what was their current obsesson ,who was acting as if she were a queen and who wasn't talking to who.

Then i reached college.Now, everyday i have a prayer of thanks to God(I would like to believe that he exists) for giving me an opportunity to see a world beyond mine.There are more people out there ,with different cultures,backgrounds and ideals;speaking diffrent languages ,marked by different colours and working with different mindsets.There is so much out there that we haven't experienced and i'l always will be filled with gratitude for that knowledge.

Life is short .How many times have we heard this and actually understood what it meant?Life is SHORT.A couple or more years and the poof!You're gone .Wiped off from the face of the earth; someone else taking your space.Does that make you feel like doing something extra-ordinary?For me?I don't know. I don't have that drive now.Though it does scare me.

But what makes me wonder more is why I back down whenever there's seems to be an opportunity to grow,to learn.It shouldn't matter what others think or not think,what others see or not see.I have one chance to fill my life with adventures,with friends,with love-anything i want to.Best part and the scary part about this is -its my call ;whether i want to get into a fight with a friend and spoil the whole relationship or so somewhere alone or just stop studying or study to my heart's content  etc etc.In the end ,you do whatever makes you happy.

This journey is MINE,mine alone.

When these thoughts visit me ,once in a while , it feels like a a breath of fresh air , life a beautiful sunny mornign,like there's hope-for happiness,contentment.

The decisions I make matter.This independence is a powerful tool.They'll define me and take me where i have eventually end up.

The people i know may or may not be a part of me future.Yet the need for pretense at times is still strong.Why do mundane things in life make us forget the bigger truth?-that these things don't even matter.Yet these are the things that fill our lives ,sometimes barely enough to avoid depression and sometimes to the brim,that it chokes us .