Faith Vs Logic

I've been thinking n thinking all day long about what to write for my first real post...(well since i'm new its kinda hard for me)....nothing really worth comes to my mind.As usual life's been as mundane as possible.Since its my first post i guess i got excited and ever since i've been rackign my brains for something good....usually i have those "insights in life" kinda moments when i'm alone....i think about the absurdity of life ,the absurdity of the thoughts people can have and of course the absurdity of people believing in God.
There has always been a part of me that doesn't want to believe in God...i dont kno why...perhaps its because im to lazy to pray -to take time off to do something that's been ingrained into our minds as kids that ive made up reasons to not believe...
but i cant fully accept the face that im actually right just the same...its a very confusing matter ...but then im always confused..
my mom says that we need something believe in to remain sane,to keep on hoping for a better life ,to keep on hoping for good things to happen...i guess that's her take on spirituality...but doesn't that mean she's just using some emtity named God for anchor and not actually believing in his existence as a creator of the universe,our Father as something that is living and not just a thought..isnt that what we've been brought up to believe in..isnt that what our religion teaches us to do
what happens to atheits when they die?where do they go?what happens to people of another faith?was the concept of heaven and hell just a sham that was formed so that people on deathbed don't grieve more because there is no second or third or even a seventh life and that its just the end of the road for them and that there is no going back?.....
they say if u've worked hard ,u'll reap the benefits...is the "God's grace" involved? do the people who believe in God and pray to him the only ones who actually get what they want?is the luck factor too a part of God's gameplan?
was the concept "God" created just to keep people in check, to teach children to diffrentiate between the good from the bad by telling them that if they dont behave god will punish them?
there are so many questions that i want to ask....if i try to answer one another one pops up in my head...i guess i can never know the truth...what might seem logical can turn out to be the erroneous ....,maybe we were never meant to understand who knows there might be someone taking care of heaven and hell after all....