Stop It, please.

I can't take it anymore!

Your constant bickering ,your cursing, your damaged heart.It's like you've completely forgotten how to enjoy anymore.

I know you're hurt.I know what you go through everyday.But surely that doesn't mean you should give up on yourself.

You've been strong before, and I don't see why you should stop fighting now.Have you forgotten the days when you hung out with your friends and caught up on a movie???Have you forgotten what it felt to be on your two feet and march into the unknown?

Have you forgotten how you loved reading those romantic novels?

Has your life scarred you so much that you feel if you could just hold on and just kept on breathing,it'll be enough to get you by?And that that's all  you'll need to keep us safe?

Have you forgotten how to truly smile?

Have you forgotten how to enjoy laughing?

Have you forgotten that you deserve being loved too?

Have you not realised that your life could be more than this? Do you not understand what Im trying to tell you???

Why cant you read anymore?Why have you reduced yourself to being a victim, such pettty thoughts?

You could turn the whole picture upside down if you wanted...if you thought you still had the strength to .

You could still manage to have your share of fun out of all this. You could still enjoy talking about what you love.

Stop worrying so much.It pisses me off! If you can't use your wits and give eye for an eye ,atleast learn to ignore.

I don't think i can listen to you anymore.Its just so sad, seeing you do the things that you do.....

Why can't you understand that your life is important too?

I just can't take it; you wasting your life like this.

You know, I pray for you everyday.

All i can do is hope that it won't be too late for you.

Raining Dogs. :D

It's really been a long time since I last posted. Honestly my life hasn't been any less boring than before.There have been moments of insanity brought on by boredom.

But all in all I can say , I've not reached the point where I would consider killing myself.

For a person who's stuck at home for most part of the holidays ,my only entertainment can be TV, my lappy and my dear Mom.

She really has her way with words.If one can go past the high pitched screaming, one would be able to see that being a housewife is really a  tough job.What with the nosy neighbours ,the noisy kids and the cute yet irritating puppy that seems to have made the whole place its playground.

Now you must understand that my mom loves animals.Dogs are her favourite.She feeds any bony creature that comes along because she just can't bear their plight.


This is really sweet of her,I admit.But this also means going up against people who can't stand the howling and the littering rascals.But that hasn't deterred mom.Oh no.

As any common story would have it, this one too wasn't without a villain.The old man aka The Matharo, who frankly is bored out of his mind to be picking a fight at this age.

You see Matharo had once expressed his disgust at having to see fur on the roads he walked.It was harsh but he was entitled to his feelings. However this only made mommy dearest even more vigilant.Her sneaky attempts to drop off food became timed ,like early in the mornings when it was dark out and her customers were reduced to a specific group of the malnourished .She was so dedicated to the task that one failed assignment kept her up at night .It was like a silent war was being fought right behind my house .Matharo was relentless in getting his proof and even managed to fool mom once ,making it seem as if no one were at home,but in reality was standing right by the window of a dark room.He was  intelligent alright.But mom had caught the bluff soon enough .He attempted other strategies but I guess nothing beat keeping a watch 24/7  sitting on his porch.

Its an ongoing,  hilarious mind game ,one that I'm sure won't come to an end at all.

And then there's the new enemy,The Pup.According to what Ive heard from mom,the little runt likes to be the centre of attention and play with people's legs.Its cute ,but not cute enough to melt her.The pup seems to scare away all the dogs -Distress reason #1;And our wuss of a 'guard dog' that we have brought up in our household prefers shitting in the compound rather than biting off the little rascal's head -Distress #2.Its all very frustrating indeed.

The dogs are an integral part of her life now, and I had secretly hoped she would lay off me since they kept her busy. But these duties have made her more agitated than before.She both hates and loves her' kids'.They give her a hard time,never letting her enjoy her trips away from home.But she worries about them nonetheless.

She loves talking about them, though it can be a bit confusing as she seems to curse them wholeheartedly at the same time .You see ,she knows it affects her .And being the kind of person who tenses up every minute of the day ,its doesn't help if one of the dogs doesn't come at the assigned time.Sigh

I can only hope for a better year for her and her dogs.Personally I just hope they keep her busy ;).

Happy New Year Everyone :P

Holidays!!!!!!!!

Totally psyched about holidays ,I started off promising to stick with the to-do list this time .But alas!That was not to happen. Confusion confusion. There were so many movies to watch ! Therefore ended up watching two per day with the rest of the time spent wandering from room to room screaming my head off as a result of boredom. Newspaper and other requirements neglected ,I sat disinterested in my room wondering how I was going to spend one and a half more months of this .A lazy ,fat assed girl like me grew even more weary of the bed as the days passed by turning into to weeks

Sigh.

I'm not even into blogging so much anymore .Its either Facebook or Twitter to irritate people with my mindless mumbo-jumbo.

What do i do? is the mantra i say everyday,only to notice the day has almost ended and its time for Castle .

Sitting at home won't solve my problems .Therefore suggestions are welcome :P